... in which I kill time by the hour ...

May 24, 2011

Poetry: "Endless Void"

Angst, ahoy! One day, I'll be sure to write a poem that is all flowers and rainbows to make up for all my depressing shiz



ENDLESS VOID

Stand on the brink
Of an endless void
Fall over the rim
And into oblivion

Trapped all alone
In a black abyss
Reaper, sound the horn
And bear my soul away

A light shines behind
But am unable to turn
For darkness rules my mind
And in my Hell, I burn

I long to run free
But I am in chains
The song is already sung
And sealed is my fate




I wrote this poem two years ago during a very boring class. And it apparently has super powers because it, unbeknownst to myself, succeeded in turning my friend gay for me. Whoopee.

May 16, 2011

Sun. Moon. Stars.

(Note: As is obvious from the title - lotsa nature freakism ahead)

I fell asleep ridiculously early last night. Or maybe not that ridiculous, considering I was supposedly studying Psychology (Psych, yous an interesting subject and all, but the damage the oh-so-competent lecturer did to you can never be undone, I'm sorry).

Where was I? Oh right, falling asleep. Right, I fell asleep around 9-ish and consequently was up by 4 this morning. So, I just wandered around, sleepless, until around 5-ish, I just happened to throw my gaze out the window. And wow, what a sight met my eyes!

To the west, there was a GORGEOUS full moon about to set. And when I say gorgeous, I mean WOW. It was huge - I still don't really get it why the sun/moon look so tiny at the zenith, but like over-inflated beach balls while rising/setting - and golden and you can almost see every crater on its surface. Maybe it's because I was seeing the moon setting for the first time, but I thought it looked far more beautiful compared to the common blood-red moonrise.

So there I was, oohing and aahing and dragging my mother outta bed to share the scene with her cos nature freakism is more important than beauty sleep, of course it is when I looked to the east and realised that not only was the moon setting, but the sun was rising, too. It was still about an hour before actual sunrise, but there was the soft, ethereal glow coming from beyond the horizon.

And right overhead, there was a patch of sky - not quite pitch black, but still dark - that was absolutely splattered with stars aplenty.

Imagine that. A slow approaching sunrise to the left, diamonds up above and a setting full moon to the right. In those moments, the sky was lit by three different sources. You don't see that every day.

It makes me wonder just what other kinds of wondrous sights we miss while we're far too busy snoring in our beds...
Nocturnal creatures are lucky, methinks.

May 7, 2011

Review: "Ooku - The Inner Chambers"

(Pre-rant warning: This is less of a review and more the flailings of a fangirlleeech, but you already knew that xD AND THERE WILL BE SPOILERS)

OK, a brief background intro before I unleash my squee:
The movie is based on the manga of the same name (or so I believe; I've never read it) and is set in the Shotoku era (1711-1716) in Japan. An endemic of the then-incurable Red-face Pox , which affects only men, have become widespread across the country, bringing down the male population to a quarter of that of the women. With their fathers, husbands, brothers and sons dying all around them, and such few XY chromosomes available, the females have become desperate with little to no prospects of marrying and bearing children. 

And then we move onto the Ooku, the Inner Chambers, which is basically the palace court of the  ... queen? Empress? What? I'm not sure what the correct English term is, so I'll stick with "Shogun". The shogun basically has her own personal harem of beautiful males - not surprising since it was commonplace for olden rulers to have plenty of bed-partners, but the idea made me LOL all the same. There were some 800 bishounen or so in this movie, serving as the shogun's potential courtesans.

(Peeve: HOLY SH!TE, the country is deprived of men but the freaking ruler is privileged to have hundreds of them in her bed?? OK, OK, so only a handful of them rank high enough to be even allowed to see the shogun, and I get it that having an impressive harem is a symbol of her rule and power, but I still maintain the whole deal is insane. Those queens of old really got around, huh?)

OK, so we've got down the state of Japan during that era and the basic idea of the Ooku. Moving onto the fanleech-ism:

This is the story of Mizuno Yunoshin, portrayed by J-pop band Arashi's member and all-round awesome actor, Nino, whom I've loved ever since seeing Ryuusei no Kizuna and even Stand Up!!
Nino, in the first fifteen minutes of the movie, was kyaa-worthy, 'cause he looked as boyishly cute and huggable and Nino as always.

Yep, definitely got the "hero" look here.
But then, after he decides to enter the Ooku, he went all samurai and I mourned the departure of his ... well...

Nino, you's o-sum and all, but you're no Vin Diesel. Just sayin'.
But I could forgive the horrible semi-head shave, simply because I love the subtle ways in which he expresses himself, especially in this film where his character is pretty complex. The only son of an impoverished family, Mizuno is a strong, kind-hearted teenager (it's enviable how a dude in his mid-late twenties can pull off a 19 year old), who is sweet and bad-ass to the core. An awesomely contradicting mix.

Mizuno's situation kind of broke my brain. In a time where poverty-stricken parents force their sons to sell their bodies to women - having a healthy son during the plague was "like having a valuable studhorse" - Mizuno's parents don't. But when women approach him, desperate for his seed in order to have children, he never refuses them out of pity (he doesn't take their money; so technically, he's not selling out. I think...) Mizuno gets around, too, but for a comparatively better reason.

But instead of accepting marriage proposals - he could revive a bit of the population that way without having to resort to such scandalous methods - he chooses to enter the Ooku in order to earn money, where he would have to ultimately work to become a possible candidate for the shogun's bed. Um, what? Isn't that another way of selling his body, which is something he refuses to do?

But then again, he is atypically in love with his childhood best friend, O-Nobu, so his nonacceptance of marriage proposals is partially justifiable.

Horikita Maki, who is cute and pretty even with that Japanese-Fan-Hairdo.
Mizuno/O-Nobu is a cute-ish couple, but I still ship Horikitty with Yamapi, because apparently, watching Kurosagi and Nobuta wo Produce back-to-back has that effect on people. Yes, I'm going off topic to declare my love for Yamaki. *nods*

Maki's role is minor and not much is there to know about her character except that she's the daughter of a merchant and makes epic rice balls (*snort* That sounds almost wrong >D), but I thought she acted decently during her limited screen time. She wasn't a dead fish/corpse, which is why I'm bewildered as to why Nao complained about "HoriMaki of the no expressions". She did have the required expressions! Her character just did not seem to call for a whole lot of them IMO.

So, Mizuno ditches life as he knows it for the luxurious living at the Ooku - which he eventually discovers is all just a facade. He joins as a low-ranking page and is introduced to the caste system of  the Ooku servants by the high-ranking, subtly villainous Matsushima, who is portrayed by none other than...

My first reaction: CHIAKI-SEMPAI!!!
TAMAKI HIROKI AJKSDLJK!!! His aloofness, his arrogance, his sly sadism ... I love this dude!

Matsushima explains that the handsome bishies of the Ooku are divided into the seniors that are allowed to see the shogun - called Grooms of the Bedchamber (appropriate, much?) - and the low-ranking poor guys that have no such privilege and are obligated to serve the Grooms. Mizuno has no problem with being one of the servants, until he learns their hardships the hard way (pardon the bad pun :P).

The movie has that high school moment where the other peers all bully and pick on the newbie arrival. But Mizuno is badass and witty and puts them in their place, resulting in his would-be bullies plotting vengeance in the form of raep (or surprise buttsex, if you will). Mizuno manages to fight them off, but he's discovered what lies under the luxurious outer beauty of the Ooku:
Rape - and sexual relations between the men in general - is common in the Inner Chambers, as a consequence of a) being cut off from women, b) the current shogun being only 7 years old and not ready to take on her harem, and c) the seniors being horny b@$t@rds. 
Also, becoming close and "friendly" with high ranking nobleman of the court gives one a high chance of being promoted; thus, many take on this challenge. Sort of like sleeping your way up the ranks. Everyone in the Ooku gets around ... with each other.

Mizuno is shocked and disturbed to learn this - so was I, though I've long known that there is no innocence in anything associated with politics - but takes it in stride as he sees it happening all around him. His first taste of shounen-ai is when he walks in on Matsushima and his, ahem, lover, who happens to be (major fanleeching ahead):

*self-combusts*
OKURA TADAYOSHI!!! WITH LONG HAIR? FO RLZ??!!
DUDE! I've been exposed to Tacchon from the moment I fell in love with Kanjani8 and fully acknowledge him as the prettiest member of the group. I've seen him with short hair, curly hair, horrible hair, wig hair, frickin' blond hair and somanysidesofhimtolist and thought there was no way he could possibly get any prettier, but OH YOU'VE PROVED ME WRONG THERE, TACCHON. YOU'VE VIOLATED THE LAWS OF NATURE; HOW COULD SOMETHING AS TRIFLE AS A LONG-HAIRED WIG  MAKE YOU EVEN PRETTIER, HUH?!

Okura Tadayoshi has officially made it to my list of Japanese idol dudes that need to be put under a pact where it is illegal for them to have short hair, which includes but is not limited to: Shibutani Subaru, Nishikido Ryo, Akanishi Jin, Taguchi Junnosuke and Nagase Tomoya.

Ahem. Moving on from the fanleech rant, yeah, he plays Tsuruoka, Matsushima's lover. Heck.

Tamaki-chan, may I take your place? Like, forever? Please?? xD
I love this screen shot; not for the shounen ai, but for the pure gorgeousness because I obviously had another fanleech moment when I came upon this. And though Tacchon looks girlier prettier than possible, it is also the manliest Tacchon I've ever seen, and that's really an achievement because, as a rule, he doesn't really do manly.

Tsuruoka is a minor character, but I loved Tacchon's portrayal of him. He was so ... intense.
Those eyes ... *.* I adore the way he looks at Nino. Such cold hatred.
A sophisticated, collected, impeccable nobleman of great beauty, Tsuruoka is the best swordsman in the Ooku ... until he goes up against Mizuno. 

I loved their fights more than I can say~
I tried really hard not to ship Tsuruoka and Mizuno together, I really did. But that part of me that ignites at the very thought of forbidden love, opposites attracting and sexual tension between hot-headed rivals ... Not to mention it being Nino and Tacchon ... It was inevitable. I ended up dreaming entire fanfiction scenarios between the two. And because my brain is hardwired into genderbending, I imagined the majority of it with Mizuno being a girl and that doesn't even make sense because Tacchon will always look more like a girl than Nino. Period.

In any case, this movie is strife with the concept of shounen ai - sleeping your way to the top plays a darn big role in Ooku; it is not graphic, just heavily implied. 
In fact, the most graphic shounen ai scene in the whole movie involves Mizuno, the dude who refuses to allow seniors to touch him, ironically; and it comes in the form of comic relief. When Kakizoe, the ultimate Shotoku era fanboy, asks for "just a memory", Mizuno leaves Kakizoe with quite a memory by awkwardly mouthraeping him.

Back to the Ooku. The 7 year old shogun dies, and a new shogun, Yoshimune, replaces her, portrayed by Shibasaki Kou.

Beautiful and intimidating. Perfect.
The new shogun is a deadly combination of beauty, intelligence, commanding, stern, grace and the I-ain't-taking-bullsh!t-from-anybody attitude I admire in strong female characters. I loved her at once. Even though she took a fancy to Mizuno, choosing him as the Secret Swain - the male to take her virginity - which, according to the law, would result in him being decapitated because he's marring the shogun's untouched being. Crazy insane laws.

I've spoilt this film enough and I'll leave the ending untouched. Suffice to say, the film is a work of art that blew my mind. The plot, the flow, the dialogue, the characters, the acting - they were so well done and beautiful. To speak of technicalities, the editing and direction were top-notch and the soundtrack - my gosh, the soundtrack - it just blew me away! Rhythmic, Oriental and so majestic, it was one of the highlights of the entire movie. I want. NOW.  

Don't get me started on the lighting and cinematography. I have no words. 
I'll just leave these here:


May 3, 2011

Ever HEARD a shooting star?

Seriously, have you? 'Cause I've never come across anyone claiming to have heard the sound of a shooting star. But tonight, I think I really did ...

It was on my way home, back from my aerobics class. The setting and mood weren't magical at all. I was on the back of my dad's motorbike in a busy, well-lit street full of vehicles all racing to make the green light. Not exactly the ideal place one would fancy being in to witness a magical site the likes of which never seen before (at least, I haven't).

Then, out of nowhere, this huge, white light appeared in my peripheral vision and I looked up. 

The biggest shooting star I have ever seen in my life! 

Imagine the average, fleeting shooting star you'd normally see at night. Now make that three or four times bigger, brighter and longer. That would be about the size of the meteor I saw tonight. It was so huge and seemed so  unbelievably close (like you could have touched it if you had been standing on the terrace of a tall building) that, for an instant, I thought it was a flare or maybe even a firework.  But a firework would have exploded at some point. This one didn't. It sailed from one end of the night sky to the other - lasting seconds longer than the average meteor - and vanished. That was when I was sure it truly was a shooting star.

Throughout those amazing, beautiful, few seconds, I heard a faint sound, like something crackling and sizzling in the distance. The noise disappeared the moment the shooting star did. It took a moment for it to sink in that I had actually heard it's sound. But it seemed just so incredible that at first, I thought it was my imagination, the sound and the star. Had I really seen one that was so close to the ground and enormous that I'd actually heard it?

My doubts were cleared when, suddenly, my dad exclaimed, 'Did you see that just now?!'

I wasn't the only one! My dad had seen it, too! And his mind, just like mine, was totally blown by the sheer size and proximity of  the star. He couldn't stop talking about it all the way home.

I was glad that I had Dad as an eye-witness to that wondrous sight. But I was still in doubt about the sound. Had I actually heard white-hot rock and ice cutting though air? Was that even possible?

But then, sounding awestruck, disbelieving and hesitant all at once, my dad muttered, '... I could hear it. Like a sizzling.'

It was just ... I don't even know. It was one of those moments where ... I can't even describe it! 
It was like Dad and I had just witnessed some kind of miracle together; because later even Dad admitted he had never seen a shooting star that huge in his life - and he's lived some sixty years so far - and that he had never heard of anyone hearing it. It was amazing.

I might be making a mountain out of a mole-hill because I am a bit of a nature freak. And I don't even know if anyone else on the road had seen it. But for those few seconds, to me it was like magic. And I, for one, know that I won't be forgetting that sight for a long, long time to come.